Crossroads…(To my NG)

You never know what life has got in store for you. When you came along my way, I could never have guessed what way you were headed and that you could spare no pains in sweeping me off my feet. I never ever imagined and believed in the nature of feelings and their capability of taking you through a U-Turn when you are just to pull off far far away from the focal crossroad of your life. So, when the hopes started fading, I remember the last time I dreamt of anything like that. Not because have had a bad luck in love or anything, just because the permanent failure of feelings over pragmatic behaviour and the scattered visions of so many people I have met and the scattering effect those very visions have had on mine seemed to be telling me to get my feet off the water and start walking. But yeah, then you came. ..

And I suddenly lost the need to chase my crossroads and made my own U-Turn. As I opened my eyes every morning, I could surprisingly see those crossroads and the traffic lights of feelings and emotional bursts …. all those things you apparently are either allowed or prohibited to feel and do found themselves lifted up and flying over the clouds… literally pulling me off the depth I had fallen deep into.
You are a story. A brand new story. The one that wipes off all the lines written on the pages of my life. Funny, isn’t it? We meet, we talk, we hug, we kiss and when we do, the whole story gets a new ending, completely ignoring the way it began. Oftentimes I find your scent lingering around the house… but there is never a time I could rest in peace after you leave. An old saying keeps coming back… “Too good to be true”… well, I take myself good enough to disperse the tantalising effect this saying has on me… the one which keeps saying you don’t deserve this. In a sense, I think it is a good one. Keeps you moving. But funnily enough, every time one moves, you have a sense of destination. But the move I have with you seems to have no destination whatsoever. Headed nowhere… endless road with no direction…

All the things I feel on the go, all the things I find on the road, and all the things you show and I discover, just keep coming and pushing me higher and higher… or the distressing minutes we both feel also seem to just add up to these countless impressions with an intangible lesson we learn. This is the point when I discover the unknown thirst and inclination to go further and further, farther and farther… longer and … forever… I have not thought about whether I would have found strength and will to do the same with anybody else, but with you, all seems like an emotional rhetoric. A rhetoric to be followed. Not questioned.
Yours